Sticky: Are you a ti? Check this list.

If in doubt, or you are in physical distress that is severe, please see a medical doctor.  Think twice about running to a psychiatrist or listing “mental” symptoms to your medical doctor.  Even Christian Evangelists are now running to  the pills (they use “meds” at “Christian” treatment centers) so don’t even confess to your pastor, priest, or rabbi your mental anguish unless you are sure they won’t refer you to a shrink or start questioning your mental health to your family and friends.

I.  Some symptoms of Organized Stalking

  1. Do people seem rude everywhere you go?
  2. Are people nice “at first” then grow “nasty” (this one is for TURNer since it’s a play on words isn’t it?) after several interactions?
  3. Are you getting poor service by Contractors and Mechanics?  Is your car constantly breaking down?  Is your computer slow and/or full of viruses?
  4. Are you getting rude service on the phone?
  5. Are you missing mail?  Is mail late?  Have you been penalized for late bills?  Is the mail you get torn perpendicularly across the envelope flap to “show” you your mail is being “watched”?  Are your packages damaged/stomped?
  6. Are people on the street making repeated odd gestures around you?  Are they touching their nose or ears or pointing back at you with their thumb?  Are you being “pointed out” by strangers in public?
  7. Are people muttering insults at you as you go by?  Are strangers giving you hateful dirty looks?
  8. Are you losing friends and not making many new ones?
  9. Are your new friends odd and seem to have an agenda?  Are they overly bossy and inquisitive?
  10. Are you recently separated, divorced, or broken up with a significant other?
  11. Do strangers act hateful around you?
  12. Do strangers try to start arguments with you in public places?  Has it gotten so bad the police have been called?  Were the cops automatically on the instigators side and not willing to listen to you?
  13. Do cars shine bright lights on you when you go out at night or shine their brights/spotlights in your windows at night?  Are you followed in traffic?  Do slow people get ahead of you and then others press in behind you as well as on the sides if on the highway?
  14. Is your boss unwilling to promote you?  Is your formerly friendly boss now suspicious of you and “rides your ass” at work? Are your professors/teachers grading you “down” for work you would have gotten a higher grade for in the past, ignore your comments in class, and act rude out of class?
  15. Is your family acting strangely? Are they treating you differently?  Are you being left out of family functions?  Do you feel marginalized in your family when you were important to them before?  Are you all of a sudden the “black sheep”?
  16. Have  you been pressed to see a psychiatrist even though you have no symptoms of mental illness?
  17. Do people from work or your ex’s friends seem to just “show up” in places you go to when they didn’t before?
  1. 18.  Do you find odd paraphernalia left on the ground for you when on foot?  It could be a single piece of trash, coins, anything that is repeated endlessly and designed to create an emotional reaction.

II.  Some symptoms of Electronic Harassment

  1. Are you getting sharp sting-like pains for no reason?  Do you get severe itching especially at night with no diagnosis of a skin condition?
  2. Do you have pains in the heart area with no sign of heart disease?  Do you have unexplained headaches that are not part of a physical condition?
  3. Do you have trouble sleeping?  Do you sleep too much?
  4. Are you always tired even when you don’t exert yourself?
  5. Have you had a sudden onset of a severe chronic condition such as diabetes, cancer, MS, or lupus when you were previously healthy and these conditions do not run in your family?
  6. Has your physical appearance seemed to deteriorate rapidly?
  7. Have you been aging at a more rapid pace than usual?
  8. Do you have strange dreams?  Are they almost always negative? (some psych meds can cause vivid dreams so take that into account)
  9. Do you have strange pains in certain areas of the body especially at home and especially in certain rooms?
  10. Do you suddenly have “dizziness” that won’t go away and no physical cause for it?
  11. Are you weaker now on one side when you weren’t before and there is no physical cause for it?
  12. Do you have a fast heartbeat even when resting?
  13. Do you have constant “colds” or infections that run on for months?
  14. Do you have “accidents” at home and away?  Do you fall while walking, bump into things, cut yourself, and there is no physical cause for this?
  15. Do you have dental problems/pain where your teeth were healthy before?
  16. Do you have sexual stimulation more than usual and at inappropriate times designed to make you feel guilty and dirty?

III.  Some symptoms of Mind Control

  1. Have you started hearing “voices” that emanate inside your head, from the wall, or a point in the air around you that no one else hears?  Are they voices of people you know like co-workers, family, friends, or even people who have died?
  2. Have you been having thoughts in your head that seem intrusive and that aren’t yours?  Do these thoughts begin with “I” and come at the worst possible times?
  3. Are weird coicidences happening in your life where it seems you are prophetic, or do weird combinations of numbers/dates keep popping up?  Do strangers refer to things in public that you have never told anyone?
  4. Do you see “visions” with your eyes closed that are disturbing or negative?
  5. Do you seem to be “haunted” by dead family or friends in dreams, by voices in the head, or the appearance of look a like actors in public?
  6. Do you have trouble concentrating on things that were easy to learn before?
  7. Do you have some memory loss/ having trouble finding words/forgetting things at times?
  8. Are you having trouble learning hard concepts you were able to grasp before?  Are you having trouble concentrating on in depth reading material you enjoyed before?
  9. Are you suddenly clumsy in public and bump into people and things?  Do you now have social ineptness you never had before?
  10. Do you find you are forced to say or mutter things are not on your mind to say that are inappropriate and or disturbing in public?
  11. Do you have trouble being articulate?  Do you stammer when you didn’t before?  Do you scramble words in a sentence?  Do you sound dumber in person than when you write?
  12. Do you feel your mind is being read and this is being confirmed by Voice to Skull and the actions of people in public?  (this symptom is hardest to prove but very real for those who have it.)
  13. Do you have conversations/arguments with the voices when no one else is around?  Do they want to “talk” even when you don’t?

These are some symptoms of being a ti.  Some mimic physical, mental and psychological disorders, so see a doctor if in doubt but be slow to run to a psychiatrist unless you wish to be doped for life on mind numbing drugs.

Please see a post I wrote back in February 2008 for some odd instances that happened to me in the beginning that didn’t seem so odd at the time but taken together add up to a disturbing whole

http://downcastmysoul.wordpress.com/2008/02/05/when-did-it-all-start

Film with mental health activists

It seems as if even the mental health activists are” getting it”. These activists (some are consumers) talk about the mental health system’s “drop in” centers in Vermont. One person on the panel describes her abuse at these centers in detail. The more she talks the more she sounds targetted by the drop in centers.  I believe truly mentally ill people are targets as well.

The panel also attacks forced drugging and how the mental health system is used to keep a patient down instead of fostering recovery. The most interesting thing about this film is when a phone caller says that it’s only assumed mental illness is for “life”. For many of us, it’s a lifetime label to hold us down after a BRIEF period of lowered functioning usually caused by PSYCHIATRIC DRUGS. Being different should not be construed a person is “nuts” unless they cannot function at any reasonable level.

The woman who is complaining, Marge, may have been a highly intelligent woman who has been drugged out of her mind after being involuntarily committed do some poor life choice or another “way back when” and now she has such brain damage with drugs she sounds totally insane.

Another woman on the panel, whilst not being tops in fashion, is so intelligent I’m awed and humbled.  I hope she isn’t forced to take drugs.

I am a former “member” of one of those drop in communities and have visited another.  They are full of perps and are used to hold down ti’s that have had the misfortune of getting mental health labeling.  They can be an invaluable resource to a lonely person with a mental diagnosis but they have been infected with perp cancer.  The weakest members of the community are frequently scapegoated by “stronger” members and the “staff” does nothing.  Please see the On Gangstalking blog for more about abuse in institutional settings such as homeless shelters and homeless drop in centers.

It’s a common saying that the rich are “eccentric” and the poor are “nuts”.

Two Years…

And thirty thousand “happy” customers later, here I am just one of the growing number of ti bloggers. I am grateful for (the few! the proud!) people that have read this piece of squid ink on toilet paper these past two years.

Maybe one day it will no longer necessary to have these target blogs as we will be listened to and will begin to take our lives back. It’s either that or the end of the world as we know it in the very near future.

Here’s something fun I found: did you watch “films” in school? I found this site that has a whole gang of these films, some going back to the 1920’s! These hark back to a very innocent era.

Be sure to watch the film on how to have good mental health! No pills are mentioned. It’s about a family doctor who looks back on the people in his town and how they overcame their emotional difficulties. I laughed through the whole thing!

Look at the clothes! The attitudes! The utter innocence! Most of us can remember when things were at least somewhat like this.

See the film on the teen who “transformed” herself by learning to sew her own clothes.  It shows step by step how to make a dress from a pattern.  I’m still clueless after watching this how to do it!  I failed home ec and would have took home an “F” if it hadn’t been for the fact half of the class was about cooking and food and I passed that part, hahahah.

The films on sex ed are um, weird, I found.

I did not view the films (driver’s ed?) on accidents. Did not want to traumatize myself too much. Kids today do not even get driver’s ed in school. If I had had to learn to drive just from my father I would have killed people just driving around! His driving was not good. My mother was a good driving teacher however.

I hope everyone has a Merry Christmas, Happy Hannukah, and a Happy Kwanzaa. Let us hope for a better New Year than this one was.

Just a Thought:

Has anyone considered that when Former President Clinton ended welfare back in 1996 that all those people who he cut off would need to get work to survive, and that burger flipping and temp agencies would not be enough to make ends meet? What happened to all those people screwed out of welfare?

I’m sure some of them picked themselves up and get retrained for work and are now thriving. Some of them probably found a way to get on disability.

What about the rest? There are lots of homeless and semi homeless people now (who live with friends and relatives on and off), but what about the rest?

Our city just closed a huge homeless shelter for men just in time for the holidays, where did they all go?

Of course, I will give the obvious answer: most of these newly impoverished people used “perping” as a way to supplement their meager income. It’s probably the biggest growth industry in the world.

Millions of Perple People could not get by if they didn’t have money from perping/snitching on their fellow citizens. I’ve been at the bottom of the job market before I was forced out altogether. You do not get enough to survive.

I scraped by from tiny check to tiny check by getting help from family (who hadn’t totally disengaged from me yet),  and my friend (who would loan me money and pay me for odd jobs).  I also could go along with her in her car to a large food bank far from my apartment where I could get a lot of food.  I tried using the ones around here last summer.  Talk about horrible. NO meat, no milk, no cheese:  only pantry items and some fruits and veggies.

I would only get the two prescriptions for my condition that I could afford and if I got sicker had to use “urgent care” clinics that would rip you off to see you for one minute to get that precious prescription slip.  My health got worse and I aged prematurely.  It was scary.  Plus, I was always losing the jobs I COULD get to perp set ups.

I never got a job that took any real skill or had any real dignity even though I kept on “training” for better work right up until last year, as a matter of fact.  It’s a jungle out there if the shit are keeping you down.

Maybe potential perps are “kept down” in order to make them ripe for recruitment.  The higher level perps can be recruited with threats of job loss or revelation of secrets.

When the republicans destroyed the Great American Job in the 1980s they set the stage for large numbers of people having to snitch/harass for a living.

In the Dark

I have had a very hard past 2 weeks and it has led me to think about something: is what we see on the blogs and forums all that there is?

I go to the blogs and forums and see it is business as usual: no one knows any more about what is happening to us than 5 years ago when I first went online at the library about OS/EH January, 2005.

I’m of the opinion that there are different levels of ti’s and I am on the outside level. I do think there are covert ti’s that have managed to survive on a lot higher level than we do–poor suckers that we are.

I think these other ti’s know how to REALLY shield against the physical attacks and V2k and also know how to block the mind reading devices. I think they also know how to end the constant street harassment that totally obliterates a ti’s life along with the rumor campaigns that destroy any and all of their relationships.

These ti’s operate underground and do not have blogs nor participate on forums, although they might lurk forums and/or read blogs.

I think they manage to survive in society and watch each other’s backs (something the “other” ti’s don’t do). I think they have infiltrated the perp groups and know how they operate. I think some of them get addicted to the perp life and turn perp.

I think those who remain ti’s are not interested in saving the rest of us, at least not right away. These fighting ti’s will be the ones fighting for freedom from the New World Prison in the End Times. They are fighting now. They are having a party and we are not invited.

They believe lots of ti’s might not be able to be saved but they will try and fight for themseves and their friends and families. For those of us who no longer have friends and families and exist in a Hell like world of constant harassment–tough.

I was just reading the forums, etc…and thought, “how PATHETIC” and I realized that this is not all there is. No way.

Those of us who are mind read can not in any way be associated with these covert fighter groups as we would destroy their whole operation by just knowing anything. How these fighter ti’s get their brains “off-line” from the monsters is a mystery, but they manage to and someday, in the future will fight along with the rest of the human race to free ourselves from the demon controlled monsters.

Unfortunately, most of us “clueless” ti’s will be dead then.

I feel I blew my chance somewhere to be among them and now I die slowly in isolation.

What if…

I woke up tomorrow and I was free? No V2k, no gangstalkers, the world before me as a free person? Of course, free is a relative term considering the world is under enslavement and that even if I woke up with my ti record erased as if it never happened I could do something to get targetted that first day! A look, an offhand statement, who knows? Knowing my personality, I would probably end up targetted before long anyway.

Let’s say I manage to exist in the “free” world and manage not to get myself targetted or harassed in any sytematic way, what would I do?

Well, my life is at least half over, but I think I would like to be a baker. I would train in baking at a local school while supporting myself at a menial job like prep cooking/janitorial,etc. Then, I’d get a job in a bakery where I want, not necessarily this city.  I like handling dough and the release it gives you.  Working in a bakery/owning a bakery is very time consuming with long hours so I would not have too much “free” time to get into trouble and think too much.

I would have to give up my benefits so I would hope some kind of universal health insurance would be in place if I had to take a low paying job without insurance even after training.  I have heard people going off of benefits are allowed to keep insurance for awhile, but, who knows?  I would hope the universal insurance would be run so the medical business in this country would never be allowed to send hugely catastrophic medical bills to anyone.  Ask me what the charges would have been for just 2 days in the hospital if I had no insurance.  I would not have been able to pay it off in my lifetime with the 7 dollar an hour “jobs” I was able to get before targetting.

As an aside, did you know that today’s “students” pay off their exhorbitant loans the rest of their lives just to be a little cog in the machine handled and controlled just like livestock?  Ahhh this is the “good” life, in hock up to the neck in mortgage, car payments, and student loans.  No wonder people of the so called “professional” class become perp handlers.

I’d like to live outside the city/town where I would work and spend my free time “off the grid” in nature or with a few select people I’d befriend. I would never ever befriend a gossip or a liar again.

I’d learn to herbal healing and try and heal myself with herbs/natural treatment AFTER I got the operation I need that no amount of herbs can cure. I will have a better quality of life and more stamina after I have it if I didnt’ have to worry about the  surgeon fucking up on perpose or having perp nurses, etc. (I lost 3 family members to medical mistakes/negligence in a few years when my targetting began).  I would still need some prescription medicine for my chronic condition but would like to get as healthy as I could to see how little of it I could take to be as natural as possible.

I would not be drawn to fast food restaurants or malls or attractions like amusement parks because such places are just mass mind control tools and marketing devices. Have you ever been to a mall/amusement park/tourist attraction and felt you were just a piece of meat being pushed through and expected to go through a sensory mind wash experience?  Do you feel weakened and used after even something you were looking forward to such as a concert because when you got there you were marketed to, handled by security, watched under a microscope, crowded about by idiotic mind controlled shit as they acted stupid and generally felt like CATTLE afterward? I have. No more bullshit experiences. Everything would be natural and real. If I ate out it would be at a privately owned fine food place no damn corporate chains that bleed your spirit and mind as they bleed your wallet. Yes, even a corporate eating experience can bleed your soul. As you eat you are being sold to over and over again. Having a meal is not enough. Do you want a T-shirt?  A gift certificate?  An overpriced drink? Plus, in most of these places the damn television is on. No escaping the eye of big brother.

Orwell had it so right in the 1940s when he envisioned a television like device in every “citizens” apartment plus the damn thing on everywhere they went with endless propaganda news and “entertainment”.  Some ti’s even say the tv “watches them back”. Even my friend said that. See an earlier post for a discussion of media mirroring.

Since my family relations have been decimated I would have to have friends that were as good as family or just have solitude. I could finally pray and worship God without constant perp v2k surveillance and harassment so I could finally fix my destroyed relationship with Him and possibly be saved. I would never ever join a “church” because of how I have been perped in “worship” services. I would like to have a house church myself for Bible studies or go to a friend’s house church but no institutional church experiences at a giant McChurch.

I would like to have a significant other, but years of harassment by men and just plain contempt from them makes me think that most of them just want a warm body to use and the few good ones are snapped up by shrewd bitches early on…the good men being drawn in by their bony bodies and an act of innocence that puts on a flavor of girl next door that walks around as “the love of your life.”

The coathangers get most of the “good” men and the few left are gay or dead after you hit 35 or so.

I’m not saying there aren’t some quality divorced men out there though.

I’d go on camping/fishing trips for vacations and would spend the minimum of money in the great American Vacation Machine (this is where all the real money is made: leisure.). Everyone still takes “vacations” no matter if they have job or not…just keep on maxing out those cards.

I would not spend megabucks on McHotel chains run by perps that would not hire me when I was poor and alone and needed a job.

I would drive an older vehicle (since I guess I would be “allowed” to have one if I wasn’t a target). No GPS or computerized anything. If I could, I’d get one old enough to get “regular” gas. I’d want one I could fix myself and not get taken at the perp mechanics who sit and sneer as a panicked woman comes in with a broken car.

I would hope to die in my sleep and not spend my last years in and out of a hospital or nursing home where the perps are everywhere. I would rather die surrounded by friends (since family are out) or in nature alone. Just a spare me the diseases that cause horrible pain or debility since they require some medical care even if it is “palliative”.

If I don’t get to live in some kind of peace I will die and roar into hell on a carpet of my own personal hell already in my head.

Paint it Black

It’s Black Friday the day after “Thanksgiving”. I won’t be buying anything since I have no money nor any credit. And even if I did, I could only buy for myself since having no friends nor any family thanks to the perps leaves me with no gift list.

I went to “Thanksgiving” yesterday to the only place the perps *let* me be with other people. I was perped by the people there. As soon as I got there I wanted to leave. I had to keep telling myself “it’s just a free meal, food you cannot afford now” to get thru it. The owner of the place walked by me before the meal and muttered “you fuckin’ cunt”, how nice, especially from a “Christian”. What a joke.

At least the food was good, even excessive.

The v2k was unrelenting all day leading up to me going to dinner. I guess we, the animals in human form do NOT get the “holidays” off.

I still have bad memories of last year’s being sick and my broken arm, so, if you want to know the truth, I can’t wait for January.

The Walls Came Tumbling Down

This month, it’s been 20 years since the Berlin Wall came down and the Iron Curtain of Communism over Russia and Eastern Europe.

I don’t know if you are old enough (anyone over 30) to remember when Russia and Eastern Europe comprised the world’s largest prison right behind the “People’s Republic” of China, but, it was a time fear to live in the US. It was worse than even the events of 9/11.

There was a fear of imminent Nuclear War. The early 1980s were a time of anxiety as the arms race between the US and the former Soviet Union continued and President Reagan said things like the Soviet Union was the “evil empire” and books and movies depicted very realistic Nuclear War scenarios. I once heard the local test siren go off one week shortly after reading a book and seeing a movie about nukes, and I literally thought the Russians were attacking! I thought it was only a matter of time that one side or the other would do something stupid and the situation would degenerate into the end of life on Earth very quickly.

When the Wall came down in 1989 along with the freeing of Eastern Europe and later Russia from Communism it was like a blessing to those who can still remember it.  It was a reprieve from the constant fear of “war” and the end of half of Europe being under a dictatorship so huge and pervasive it seemed it would never end.

For me, the joy did not last as my targetting was just gearing up then, and I was made so miserable and un-free by tiny gradations day by day I did not feel the joy. Soon, my life got so dark I even envied the people in the former Iron Curtain countries even though I did not know the source of the shadow.

I new and sinister idea just occurred to me.  What if the “Wall Came Down” not because “freedom” had won over “oppression” but that the technology for total world tracking of each and every individual on Earth had become a reality so the tyrants of the Eastern Bloc thought it safe to let the little citizens out of their cages?  In other words, “freedom” had died in the “free” countries (where it did not really even exist for many even before then) so it was “safe” to let oppressed people to have free run of the cage that had become Earth.

In other words contained Communism morphed into world Fascism.  In essence, totalitarianism with shopping malls.

Many long term targets noticed their targetting starting around the late 80s/early 90s term of Dubya’s father, number 41.  Mine started right around the time the “election season” was starting about a year before the 1988 election.  I’m thinking the “End of Communism” was a planned event by the globalists so the little suckers like you and me could think “freedom” won over oppression.

It didn’t.  For the first time, I think, the perp controllers had the system in place to track anyone anytime anywhere and read their mind as well.  No need for an “arms race” or a “Cold War”.  Arab terrorists replaced the face of the enemy for most “free” people and the transition was as smooth as butter.  Now, they are the enemies to fear and flag wave over.

Who will be the enemy of the future?  Us.  Ordinary citizens selected and persecuted at first in secret and then everywhere.  In a way, we already are the “enemy” of all the people.  We are selected and harassed and tortured without a reason, without any charges being brought against us and without any recourse or even an opportunity to tell our stories in a court of law.  We are charged, convicted and sentenced to a very dark restricted “life” even before we know what’ s happening.  Soon, the whole world will be under this sort of surveillance/punishment/reward scheme with variations.  The threat of total targetting (like we get where we have no friends anywhere) will keep them in line along with the threat of concentration camps or whatever else they come up with. Only the citizen spies and “party members” will have it a little better.

After that, the devil will set up his world leader.

Another film on drugging children

Here is another film on drugging children!  I can see the sinister aspect of this as a way to damage to brains of children they see as too bright to accept being two legged livestock for the NWO.  For almost frivolous reasons, schools give a child drugs and a label and chemically lower their intelligence.  The “reason” is never the one given.

Did you know the government pays off schools and even low income parents in order for kids to take drugs?  Watch this film.

There is another story of a child dragged off by police and the mother abused and imprisoned  for refusing to give the child drugs.

Ritalin is related to crystal meth.  Why so many meth/crack addicts?  They are used to “being on speed”!

Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold were on psychiatric drugs and their behavior changed AFTER they were put on drugs.  Antidepressants which were seen as a “miracle cure” 20 years ago cause children to be violent.

I was “put on drugs” as a teen and know the nightmare scenario.  I ended up in the state hospital with my parents relinquishing custody to the state (temporarily) after a suicide attempt due to the despondent depression caused by antipsychotic drugs prescribed by an overzealous psychiatrist after consulting her because I was having trouble making friends.  I ended up a high school dropout with a psychiatric label and a sense of underachievement.  Leaving the hospital before I was officially discharged (snerk snerk) may have cause me to be submitted for targetting.  I never liked to “comply” without a reason.

Used again

Wow, I must be a sucker! I could start sucker university!

A person who never even responded to me on the forums suddenly started writing me personally over a forum topic. I really got into our thread and may have revealed personal details of my life that I did not want to. After the last letter I sent this person two days ago, this person stopped writing.

Obviously I was used again. I feel dirty, raped. This person was info collecting for the perps to get easier treatment/more acceptance by “other ti’s”!

I fell for it, again.

UPDATE:  Just got “proof” by some perping yesterday, that that was the case!  The parties spoken about in my letters to her were notified and I was duly perped by them.  She has since sort of disappeared from the forums.  Well, I know what happens to ti’s that rat out on me…things go easier for awhile but then they get dropped lower than they were before.  Used, like old toilet paper.  Have a nice life, whore.

Later, she will come back to the forums pissing and complaining how terrible her life has gotten.  I’d almost be willing to bet money on this.  See my post on ti’s that rat out other ti’s.

Oh boy, today’s my lucky day!

Luk’s like teh shrink is in!

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